Over my head--hiding from everyone else!

Kirschenessen

I am way over my head. More to do than I can do. More people to write than I am able. More phone calls. More tasks. More expectations than I am able to meet. I am only one person. I cannot cope with all that is on my plate.

What does God require of me today?

"I am humble and meek, learn from me." Jesus

"Unless we become like children, we cannot enter into the kingdom of God."

Perhaps God would have me rest in this day that He has made, delight in the moments He has given. Live with my limitations. Know my fragility, His strength. Admit my frailty, live in His compassion and mercy. Acknowledge my failures while living in His redeeming, generous love.

God is opposed to the proud and gives grace to the humble.

Today, early this morning, I have found rest and peace in the midst of my flurry--my warm tea, the dancing piano notes soothing my weariness, the tiny green aspen leaves budding outside my window, and crawling up into the arms of my Father seeking peace. Only as I live in Him will I find peace today. I will seek to stay here as I go about my business.

The meek man will attain a place of soul rest. As he walks on in meekness he will be happy to let God defend him. The old struggle to defend himself is over. He has found the peace which meekness brings.-- A.W. Tozer

 

 

We don't have much money, but we always live life well......

Today, in the taxi to the airport in Boston, we drove with a very sweet man from the Dominican Republic. I work hard in America to support my family. I have 7 children. But maybe life is really better in the Dominican Republic. It is beautiful and splendid and colorful and fresh, and I can watch the sun rise and spread over the land. I always have a friend or someone from my family who will live and enjoy life with me, just to spend life together. We may not have much to eat, but we really live and celebrate life.

Seems in America, you have lots of stuff, but you always work, come home watch tv, go to bed and then the same thing all over again. You never have time to live and enjoy life... Just thinking out-loud, he said, as he smiled and opened my door.

And now, I am just thinking...........

Mothers--Divinely created to cultivate and preserve civility throughout history

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sarah, Nathan, Joy and Joel--The tools God used to teach me everything I know about motherhood.

“Children do not accidentally become righteous leaders or emotionally healthy and productive adults – any more than seeds thrown randomly to the wind grow to be part of a thriving, beautiful garden.

Someone needs to take responsibility for their nurture, protection, nourishment, intellectual development, manners, recreation, personal needs, and spiritual development. Someone needs to commit time and energy into staying close to them as they grow, encouraging, loving, correcting and teaching.

God designed mothers with a capacity to call forth all that is great, excellent, true, pure and  righteous in a child's heart and to cast a vision for their children to bring these virtues about in their own lives, and in their generation. When I woman embraces her design and call by God, there will always be hope for each generation.”

- Sally Clarkson

May God bless each of you today with affirmation and the deep significance of your calling. And may He give you rest, love, pleasure and joy. Happy Mother's Day!

 

Accept your very own puzzle

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Matthew 6:28-29

Women can be so prone to worry and fuss and be uptight, as least this woman can be. I wish at a much earlier age I had just learned to chill more, to dance more (thus Dancing with My Father), to stop and smell the flowers. Each of us has been given a different puzzle--different circumstances, differing gifts, personalities, children, husband or lack there of, family. I wish I had not been such a people pleaser, trying to live up to the expectations of others--my family, my critics, my peers. My family  puzzle just did not fit into the pattern of other's expectations and so trying to live up to these impossible standards was impossible. I wish I had accepted that at the very first instead of fretting about things I could not change.

Some of the cards we have been dealt are pleasing and some just drive us crazy. But I have often said to my children, "You might as well decide to like God's will because it is not going to change and you have to find peace within it."

But the reason I think we often struggle with His will is because we find ourselves and our circumstances unacceptable or embarrassing or less than perfect. I remember praying about a certain child and some issues in our family one day and I came across, "Fret not, it leads only to evil doing."

So that is what I was doing--fretting. Fretting is a waste of time and it does not bring grace, peace or love into a circumstance.

One really doesn't find peace until she relinquishes a tight grasp on her rights, her disappointed expectations of life and people, and learns to rest in the place where she finds herself.

God loves us and cherishes us as we are, warts and all. He died because we could not get it all together. He sees our flaws and still loves us. We must learn to love ourselves and find joy, thankfulness, acceptance with the place we are today. I love David Wilkerson and have been greatly encouraged by him over the years. He was in an automobile accident recently and died but is now in the presence of His precious Lord. He wrote these words,

God's ultimate goal for all his children is abundant life. He never intended that we go through life focused on our sins and failures. The good news is that we serve a God of absolute love—a God of mercies who desires to bring his beloved ones into a place high above all turmoil. But we cannot take our place, seated with Christ in the heavenlies, until we are fully identified with his death and resurrection. David Wilkerson

To have peace and rest with our puzzle, we must die to ourselves, our failures, our expectations and hold our hands as a toddler holds their little arms up to his  Father and say, "I need you. I need your love, grace, joy, peace today. Without you, I am not able to experience rest in my heart. Help me to see your presence in this place in time, these circumstances, within my own limitations. Open my eyes to beauty, to your fingerprints personally around me today. "

As  his own beloved child, He will welcome us into His arms and caress us with His love and soothe our restlessness and disease. He will whisper gently the secrets of a happy life, living it with Him holding our hand and giving us His perspective on our very own puzzle.

The peace and grace and favor of the Lord be with you this day.

On my way

Joel, graduating from Berklee School of Music, summa cum laude

On my way to Boston this morning to celebrate Joel's graduation. What a fun family celebration--just to all be together, chatting, eating, watching all the festivities. How sweet to taste the finish line in some areas of my life.

Never in one year of homeschooling did I finish all that I had set out to do. We moved 17 times, (6 times internationally); I had asthma, ear-infected children who were sinful, wanted to eat every day, and wear reasonably clean clothes.

Yet, it was the foundations that mattered--the day in day out devotions, chores, reading at least an hour a day outloud.

Joel wrote a very sweet dedication in his concert program to Clay and me.

"I want to thank my parents for building a wide scope of education, training, influence, strong relationships and a love for knowledge. It is because my soul is rich and deep and cultivated by their hands that I have achieved excellence in any way. Thank you for investing in me so personally to give me the foundations upon which to build my soul and to expand my mind and heart."

So today, know that it is the diligent hands, heart, words and works of mothers who will cultivate greatness in the hearts of normal children. May God bless you today to develop a wide vision and to have the integrity to be faithful in building great foundations.

How very grateful I am to see the grace of God having worked in our midst and to take the work of our hands and bring it to fruition. May all the glory be His.

My Girls make me laugh

 

A little tune, perhaps?

Sarah took Joy to Asheville, NC for a little trip as a part of a gift to her for her graduation present this year. The visit had to include a visit to the beautiful Biltmore Estate which was built by Vanderbilt. Sarah snapped drama queen Joy, (who is a source of constant laughter and fun for me),  at each of the statues along the way. They make me giggle so often.

 

Hhhumph!

Are you quite sure?????

Excuse me, do you need something?

I am most distressed and I'm not lion!

(This is the best! :))

What overwhelms you? Housekeeping for me!

Wonderful new ebook by Sarah Mae--just my style!

By personality, I am a dreamer, idealist, relational, philosophical sort of person. And yet none of this has helped me very much in keeping my home in order. But because I am an idealist, I feel compelled to keep a home that is beautiful in ambiance and a place of order--but keeping it going has always been a drainer for me.

I have had to learn to work with my own personality and with the reality of a daily active group of people in my home 365, 24 hours a day, who want to eat, live, make messes and wear relatively clean clothes! And I am supposed to be in charge of all of this!

Making a marriage with your own limitations and expectations will keep you from always feeling disappointed with yourself. But I have learned in so many areas, that I need the input from others to help me with ideas about how to do it all!

I have often said, a wise woman is someone who copies the model of many other wise women.

This is why I want to recommend this great new ebook by Sarah Mae,  31 Days to Clean, Having a Martha House in a Mary Way. What a great title, but also helpful and practical ideas. What I love is that this book deals with the heart of the matter as well as ways to see progress a little at a time.

I just love Sarah Mae. I am so blessed to call her my friend, kindred spirit and encourager. She has such a way with words and ideas. I know you will enjoy this book.

You can read more about it here: 31 Days to Clean!

But, please let me know. What details of life overwhelm you?

Mine--the constancy of messes and dishes that always need to be done again.

And not having enough time to call my own--always, always longing for this--that sneak away, sip your own cup of tea or coffee without anyone else disturbing you---time to read, be yourself, do whatever.

A Great Man, who can find?!!

HAPPY 60TH BIRTHDAY, MY CLAY OF ALL CLAYS!

I did love watching the wedding of Kate and William--have to admit it! I think that all of us were made for happily ever after. It is written in our hearts before the fall. Hearing the wedding ceremony greatly heartened me. There were admonitions to keep faithful in marriage as God designed that man and woman become one, and stay in that holy union their whole lives.

Praying that God would give Kate and William children, a heritage, as a part of the blessing of the creator, was greatly encouraging in a post modern culture that doesn't value children and family.

William and Kate wrote a prayer that they would live in a union to bless those who were less fortunate, to help those who needed encouragement, to lift the downcast.

Rarely has there been such a conservative witness to Biblical marriage, family, children and purpose on television to the masses with the name of Christ upheld. I thought it was beautiful, surprisingly so.

But as I watched, I had to think back on my own life. Clay and I got married the same summer as Princess Diana and Charles.

I had prayed that I would marry a great, spiritual man, who would serve God. But I didn't know how a whole life legacy would really be what made my man great.

So I just wanted to honor my own great man today.

Together we have partnered in this life of investing our lives for His kingdom. Clay has stayed faithful and unconditionally loving in our marriage, and serve me and given grace oh so many times.

He has devoted himself to raising a godly heritage and has been used by the hand of God to inspire our children, to teach them how to think, to give them a biblical foundation, and he serves them generously in all practical ways, where I fall short.

Giving his life to starting a parenting ministry, a publishing company, conferences, and working his whole life to see children reached for the kingdom by producing materials and conferences to help them disciple their children. He did it all without training or help.

Finally, he is my music man. He has written over 1000 songs, has led worship our whole lives, sings in the shower, and around the house and always writes and plays--it is such a delight.

So, I honor you, my sweet husband, for a life well-lived, for persevering in all of the areas designed by God, to be an investment for His kingdom. What a privilege it has been to know you and walk this journey by your side.

If only I can keep up with you for the next 60 years, as daily we sit in the early hours pondering new dreams, new ways in which we can leave a legacy of writing to encourage the next generation. I am so honored to be our partner and thank God for blessing me so. Happy Day!

The nature of a great life

The Sistine Chapel Ceiling--painted by Michelangelo

Great works are performed, not by strength, but by perseverance. Samuel Johnson

For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised.

Hebrews 10:36

Life is a long story for most of us. The sum of what we have accomplished when we go to see Jesus face to face is not measure by one deed, or one act of faith. It is measured by years of love growing, compassion stretching, faithfulness practiced over and over. When we add up a life of faithfulness in serving God, accumulating maturity, grace, knowledge, wisdom, failure, forgiveness, compassion--it is thousands of moments of choosing to practice greatness, one moment at a time.

The history of the Sistine Chapel

A great example of enduring greatness in a work of art is the ceiling paintings of Michelangelo. He painted over 5000 square feet of ceiling, one stroke at a time. Hundreds of scenes from the Bible, meticulously painted. Set backs, mold problems, scaffolding problems, financial issues, criticism, and more. Over four years, it took him to complete this work. Yet, now, thousands if not millions of people have admired his great work.

For him, it was grueling, sweating work that took a master artist perseverance and endurance of great magnitude to finish this distinguished work. You can read about it here: Michelangelo Sisteen Chapel

And so it is with our lives. God has given us this opportunity, today, to invest our lives for His glory. But greatness requires endurance, perseverance. Am I one who keeps going, keeps seeking, keeps trusting, keeps moving ahead by faith? What does it require us to accomplish God's work? A steadfast heart, mind and work ethic.

Today, as you contemplate Him, and His work, may you decide to keep fervent and patient and strong in His call to use you in your life time to bring His kingdom work to bear on a world that is desperate for His touch and redemption.

 

 

Flower hunting, antique show--so excited!

 

My last year's geranium--going to an antique, garden show today to look for bargains.

Even if it is 31 degrees here today, I can pretend that it will be spring soon, just by shopping for flowers indoors.

We do not have much success at 7200 feet to grow many things in our garden, but I still try! Love nature. A fun quote:

I love to think of nature as an unlimited broadcasting station, through which God speaks to us every hour, if we will only tune in. ~George Washington Carver

Then birthday shopping with my sweetie--60 years old this weekend. I think a big, professorial leather chair will be an option.

Lunch out. home by tea time with grand chocolate chip cookies--everyone loves my recipe--all I do is whip the butter, vanilla, eggs and sugar for 10 minutes, and then dinner and family movie tonight.

Fun day.

PS I got 14 long-stemmed blue goblets for $3 apiece at the antique show. Now we can all match when we eat off of our china. Great satisfaction.